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AHHS. I'VE GOT AN EYE INFECTION. wad de hell. i feel like screaming. banging my head against the wall. >:[

daddy says if i still continue wearing contacts. i will get blind or cant wear contacts forever. aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhs. whenever there is problem with my eyes. i will be in very bad mood. in those irritated kind of bad mood. the first thing i want to do is. GO HOMEEEEEEE and hide under my blanket and sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep and wake up. look at eye. and say YAY ITS NOT RED ANYMORE. but the thought of not wearing contacts the next day will make me sad again. and the cycle repeats.. :"[

clinic doctor says: drink more water. no contacts for 3 days. AND HE CLAIM THAT EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE FINE. ytd an optician says. MY EYES IS OK. NOTHING IS WRONG. BUY THIS EYEDROPSs. grrs. wad happened today. >:[ i finally understand that. he is jus someone who makes contacts and specs. not an eye specialist.

talked to daddy about lasik. he said 18-21. i am getting sick of eye infection and specs. i regreted not taking care of my eyes. :"[ I LOVE U EYES. LIKE HOW I LOVE PIGGY. I HOPE U LOVE ME LIKE HOW PIGGY LOVES ME. :'[

grrrs. i feel so not ok. i feel like i have burning eyes. how i wish i can dig it out and soak it in ice and place it back. i have itchy throat. i hope i wont get a sore throat. hair is flying. irritating fringe. i am going to chop u off someday. i guess i cant meet jorene after school. :'[ soooorrry jorene. :'[ *sobs* someone please fling me to venus and curse me that i cant get back to earth.

AHHS. I FEEL SO NOT OK. AHHHS. TML IS GOING TO BE A BAD DAY. :"[ I HATE SPECS-DAY. EVEN LOVABLE-FRIDAY IS GOING TO BE HATE. :'[ BYE BYE EVERYONE.