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hais. everythingg jus sarkks tuu daa core now. i dunchh noe why. i have gort ALOT tuu sae. realli ALOT. when i wan tuu sae it out. everything seems tuu be stucked at maii throat. sho i decidedd tuu put maii blog back tuu its ownn shape. n write out maii thoughts. I WILL TRY TUU WRITE OUT EVERYTHING OUT HERE. I DUNCHH CARE IF IT OFFENDS ANI1 OF EUU. IT DOESNT REALLI MATTER NOW.

ok. 1st. friends. i alwaes tot friends are peepx hu alwaes focus ur good points insteadd of ur bad points. everyone has a BAD point. theyy wont make euu feel embarrassedd in front of other people. friends encourage euu n bringg euu up. theyy listenns tuu ur grumbles even it takes an hour or more. theyy definately dunchh gossip bout euu as they will onli focus on ur good points. dis ishh wad i AGREE. i m tryingg tuu do it. if euu urself wan tuu hab a true fwenn. euu hab tuu be a true fwen ur self 1st. like. treat other peepx like how euu wan themm tuu treat euu.

the things happenning dis few daes r gettingg. weirdd. cant we siit together like the past.? mus we go our own wae.? now the problem is. A + B + C dunchh like D + E. F doesnt like D. i noe it ishh complicatedd. let mii be thinkk. i dunchh noe anione dislike G anot as A seems like she dislike G. FINE FINE FINE. I M COMPLICATING MAIISELF. I NOE EUU FEEL COMPLICATEDD. I M FIGURING IT OUT TOOO.

WHY MUS THINGS BE COMPLICATED. EUU TELL MI. WHY WHY WHY. I REALLI FEEL LIKE BANGING MAII HEAD AGAINST DAA DAM FREAKING SHITY IDIOTIC LOOKING WALL. I SERIOUSLY FEEL LIKE SLAPPING SOMETHING. GRRS.

ok. *breath in n out* hmms. i noe things cannot go daa wae tat i wann. but why mus things go sho. ridiculous. sometiimes i askk maiiself ishh dis a TEST furr mii. createdd by humans euu noe. all dis make peepx lose trust frm eachh other. it happenedd tuu mii before. i noe how it feels. it simpily sarks. it makes euu askk urslef if euu should trust him or her. daa feeling ishh completely. weird. i noe euu may not experience dis be4. but whenn everyone turn their back on euu n walk awae. euu will feel lost. euu will wan tuu find someone. i dunch noe if euu call dis dai ti pin or wadeva euu call it. it jus. NORMAL HUMAN REACTION. NOBODY WANS TUU BE ALONE.

i toldd maiiself tuu forgiive n forget. dis ishh daa best wae tuu make things possible. of course. i still treat it as a lesson. now. i dunchh feel daa i put 100% trust tuu anione. tats why i feel hard tuu find someone tuu tok tuu. yanshan. i tot of euu. but. whenever i wan tuu tell euu something. its jus too hard. i dunch noe why. marissa. daa same thing. it appiles tuu everyone yaa. its not tat i didnt try tuu sae out. its jus tat i cant. i m still searching furr someone. which i can tell everything. wif peace.

can everybody sit around daa table n tok wad they wan tuu sae.? peacefully. den things will end faster. can we can we.? please. x( some peepx dunchh noe wad ishh happeningg. like mii. until 2dae. =D

let mii continue. =D i think all tat i cann sae. hab beenn saidd. now. things hab beenn in a place which ishh. un-returnable. nvmms. after careful tots. i decidedd tuu ignore everything. study. let things go how it suppose tuu be. giive opinions whenn supposedd. console whenn supposed. jus let. everything. GO BY ITSELF.

its onli 9 months. 9 months later. its going tuu be over. i m leavingg dis blardie world.