do you want to build a snowman

Say hello to Mr Snowman! Eyes made of effervescent tablets, carrot nose, twig hands and chocolate buttons. I wonder if he's still surviving there? ⛄️

My standbys got snowballed (pun indeed) and I got called up to Zurich with Nadia! Flights with familiar faces are so so much fun! Took a 3 hours train ride out to Grindelwald, something I wouldn't do if I was alone on this flight. Trust me, it's tempting to stay in the toasty room and have cup noodles/ cereal for breakfast, lunch and dinner.

Anyways... Grindelwald was soooo scenic, it felt pretty surreal standing there with all the snowcapped mountains around us. It almost felt like we weren't supposed to be there. Think a really sunny day with sparkly snow everywhere. The temperature was -11ºc and I must say... 3 layers of heat tech, 1 knit top, 1 extra extra warm fur leggings and my Zara parka didn't do its job. :'(

Thank you control for calling me up on this flight!! Can't wait to explore the rest of the Jungfung region and of course Kangastan... When the weather gets warmer 😛 

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summertime

Got called up for Shitney, which turned out not too shitty because of familiar faces. :')

Made our way to the Grounds of Alexandria which was so so pretty! This is a really different kind of Sydney. Done it a dozen time and the furthest I went was the Korean joint 10 minutes away from our hotel. Will never ever forget my first solo on SQ211, was so worried that the rest of my flying career would be just like that... 😨

The aftermath of 'chiong-ing' was concussing for more than 14h back in Singapore... And then almost sleeping through the whole of the next day. Yes you need at least 2 days to recover from a Sydney flight hahaha. Oh well, it's all worth it. 

meow

why don't you be you, and i'll be me

One thing that 2016 taught me: It's ok not to be ok.

Sleepless nights and loss of appetites... It's ok not to be ok.

To be brutally honest... 2016 hasn't been that great. Looking back, it seem like I spent most of the year trying to hold myself together. Too caught in between my heart and mind? I don't know. I wasn't happy at all... The year went pass with me trying to get by, you know like 'get over yourself'.

On the happier note, I did start to feel whole again by the end of the year.

2016 was the year I found out that I would rather spend time with myself than head out for endless drinking and makan sessions. I still do... Very selectively or hungrily. You know you are surrounded by strangers and acquitances almost everyday, making pointless small conversations about everything and anything... You just start to appreciate alone time a lot more.

It was also the year I (fully) understood that you are not the number of likes and followers you have on Instagram, or the number of views you have on your stories, or even the amount of friends you have on Facebook (if you are still using it ha ha)... It was this year that I truly realise how easy it is to fabricate a enviable and glamorous life on social media. People only show what they want others to see. Well, I don't want anyone to see my kind of mini shithole that I trapped myself in... So I conveniently hide it with food. pretty scenic photos and my happy face hahaha.

But to be fair, there are still truly happy moments I share there. 🤗

I suppose I realise that you have to start living for yourself instead of... Pleasing everyone else. Yes I could appear more 'on' if I were to attended those drinking sessions. Er people will like me more because I'm so fun. I can post tribillion photos of myself in kebaya because I'm so so so proud to be a Singapore Girl, gain so many likes that it satisfies my egoistic needs but only to feel down again because irl I look like a cow in my kebaya haha. We are all blindly following these social norms and the end of the day... Will we be really happy?

So... 2017 is for you Bel. Selfishly, for you and only you.

I hope you make something out of those bubbles in your head...

But if things ever go south, always remember that it's ok not to be ok.